Exam year...

time goes really fast...
now already end of february...
still have less than 9 months will start my Spm...
next week will be my monthly test...
what can i do for this exam???
study,study, and study...
nothing else can do...
i really don't like this atmosphere...
studying...
especially at home...
i really want to relax at home...
why you all force me to study???
i feel so tired and stressful...
really...
i know you all hope i can get flying clours in Spm...
the best is get more than 9As...
so that i will have the scholarship for my college...
but do you all know...
i already spend plenty hours at school study, co-curriculum activities and tuition???
everytime went back home...
when i saw the computer...
i feel want to open it...
i want to play games,watch drama and tv shows on youtube...
i don't want touch the books either...
why in this world have exam???
why in this country need to study so many subjects???
why i'm the only one study at home now???
why my siblings all already go for work???
why no one accompany me study together???
why?why?why?????

HATE!!!
what can i do for all this???
how's the study become enjoyable like in primary school???
i really want to get this feelings back...
where you all go???
now i can't even concentrate when teacher teach in front of me...
what teacher said today...
i will forget in next minute...
sometime i even don't listen what teacher taught...
especially history...
i always blur in this few years...
i think my friends know me very well about this...

now...
i felt useless...
what am I doing since school reopen???
can get my 9As with this feelings???
obsolutely not!!!

WHAT CAN I DO TO NOT HATE STUDY???

who can tell me???
i really need some help...

2009年的牛年

2009年对我来说是很重要、很累、很大压力的一年。没想到时间就像流星飞逝般，过得那么快。转眼之间我已经是FORM 5 了。即将面对人生中很重要的考试 - SPM，心情既紧张又难过。紧张是因为 SPM对我未来很重要，难过是因为这也代表了我即将离开学校，投入另一段求学生活。在学校无论是快乐或是难过的回忆，只能把它们藏进心里。

FORM 5 代表我已经是大姐姐了，我需要担起照顾学妹的责任了。身为一个CLUB 的主席，自然地需要处理会员之间的一些问题。但最令我感到心烦的是老师要我做一些事可能会伤了我和他们之间的友情，令我不知如何抉择。其实我这个位置就像汉堡内的肉，上下夹攻，不知如何是好。现在我还需要想想我的职位有谁可以胜任。到底是要跟著传统，还是遵从‘民心’呢? 现在只能看看他们的表现了。

牛年，我必须像牛一样勤劳地温习功课。说的容易，做就很难。现在的我就像泄了气的汽球，无力，完全提不起劲读书。课本对我来说根本就是灾难，尤其是历史课本，我根本就记不住那些东西。每次考试都是历史拉低我的平均分，但我却不懂如何改善我的弱点。出问题的是我的懒惰还是我对读书的态度呢?也许了解我的人可以帮我解答吧!

我是否可以顺利地度过2009年，这谁也不知道。但有一件事可以确定的是我必须在SPM 来临以前找到面对这次考试的方法，顺利考到9A或10A，要不然我的家人在我来临的2010年将要很辛苦地供我上COLLEGE了。我必须努力啊!跟我一样要参加SPM的人，我们一起加油吧!