Exam year...

time goes really fast...
now already end of february...
still have less than 9 months will start my Spm...
next week will be my monthly test...
what can i do for this exam???
study,study, and study...
nothing else can do...
i really don't like this atmosphere...
studying...
especially at home...
i really want to relax at home...
why you all force me to study???
i feel so tired and stressful...
really...
i know you all hope i can get flying clours in Spm...
the best is get more than 9As...
so that i will have the scholarship for my college...
but do you all know...
i already spend plenty hours at school study, co-curriculum activities and tuition???
everytime went back home...
when i saw the computer...
i feel want to open it...
i want to play games,watch drama and tv shows on youtube...
i don't want touch the books either...
why in this world have exam???
why in this country need to study so many subjects???
why i'm the only one study at home now???
why my siblings all already go for work???
why no one accompany me study together???
why?why?why?????

HATE!!!
what can i do for all this???
how's the study become enjoyable like in primary school???
i really want to get this feelings back...
where you all go???
now i can't even concentrate when teacher teach in front of me...
what teacher said today...
i will forget in next minute...
sometime i even don't listen what teacher taught...
especially history...
i always blur in this few years...
i think my friends know me very well about this...

now...
i felt useless...
what am I doing since school reopen???
can get my 9As with this feelings???
obsolutely not!!!

WHAT CAN I DO TO NOT HATE STUDY???

who can tell me???
i really need some help...